Being Certain of Who God Is....

Some days at work are easier than others. This was not one of those days. It was emotional. But, I witnessed an amazing thing!

One of our last patients this evening is a single mom that has recently been told that her son (who is in his young 20’s) has about 30 days to live. You see, the brain tumor is inoperable. She has tried to take her life twice since receiving this news. When I first spoke with her, about a month ago, she was depressed and well, devastated. Unable to even go through the motions of the day, it was just too much to bear. I cannot imagine.

Fast forward a few weeks, she calls and I cannot believe she is the same person. As we began to talk, I asked her how things were going. She shared with me how God “showed up at church yesterday” – speaking tenderly to her heart in a way that only God can. Wow!

Today, when she came in for her appointment….I once again asked her about her son…how were things going? She told me that he was falling a lot – which is common at this stage – and that he had been given a cane, walker, etc. to help him get around a little better. He lives with his dad, so she does not get to see him as much as she would like….which, to me, is the hardest part. Having a son who is only a few years younger than her son, I cannot imagine doing anything but spending every waking (and sleeping) hour next to my son – soaking up every moment that I had left with him on this earth!

After I got her all “checked in” she went to sit in the waiting area. A few minutes passed and I begin to hear someone singing along with the radio (we have KSBJ playing in our office). It was this mom….singing along to the song “Never Alone” by the Barlow Girls (see the lyrics of this song below). As I watched her sing the words to this song, tears began to pour from my eyes. I was trying to imagine, for just a moment, how this mom must feel. How is it that she was not constantly in tears, begging God not to take her child from her so soon? How is it that she can stand not being with her son 24/7 – during the last days of his life? How could she sit there, so calmly, singing the words to this song? But, she did. She sang the words to that song – straight from her heart. Her broken heart. It seems almost unimaginable.

I have learned that while we can always be certain of who God is…..the journey he takes us on is often filled with uncertantity. What I saw today was a mom who is certain of who God is….in spite of the situation and heartache she finds herself facing…..God is still God. Period.

NEVER ALONE

I waited for you today

But you didn't show

No no

I needed you today

But where did you go

You told me to call

Said you'd be there

And though I haven't seen you

Are you still there?

I cried out with no reply

And I can't feel you by my side

So I'll hold tight to what I know

You're here and I'm never alone.

And though I cannot see you

And I can't explain why

Such a deep reassurance

You've placed in my life

We cannot separate

Cause you're part of me

And though you're invisible

I'll trust the unseen.

Another Reason to Shop at Hobby Lobby

I love to shop at Hobby Lobby. I have been known to get lost in this store. Intentionally lost, of course! :D

But, let me share with you my newest reason for wanting to patronize this company. I was on their website when I came across their "Statement of Purpose" and reading it caused my heart to leap with joy! How refreshing...to see a company as successful as Hobby Lobby giving God the glory!

Here is the "Statement of Purpose" for Hobby Lobby:

In order to effectively serve our owners, employees, and customers, the Board of Directors is committed to:

• Honoring the Lord in all we do by operating the company in a manner consistent with Biblical principles.
• Offering our customers an exceptional selection and value.
• Serving our employees and their families by establishing a work environment and company policies that build character, strengthen individuals, and nurture families.
• Providing a return on the owners' investment, sharing the Lord's blessings with our employees, and investing in our community.

We believe that it is by God's grace and provision that Hobby Lobby has endured. He has been faithful in the past, we trust Him for our future.

Cool Website of the Week - Delight.com

I have recently discovered a really neat website that has some really cool stuff! Check it out at Delight.com. The tagline on their site is "A new delight ever 24 hours!" Wow, what more could a girl want? Right? Some of the items that I've placed on my "wish list" include:

Ecojot 100% Recycled Paper Soft Cover Workbook (Journal). These are so awesome....mainly because I love to "take notes" when I read a book. These are great because you can slip them into the book (like a bookmark) and not break the spine on your book. :D

Envirosax Ultra-Mod Black & White Reusable Grocery Bags. One of these bags claims to hold the equivalent weight 2 regular plastic grocery bags....and they actually roll up small enough to place in your glovebox or purse! Cool, huh?