Forgive me, Lord, for even considering giving up my relationship with you - in order to save my marriage!
Thank you, Lord, that by moving into a deeper relationship with you (rather than giving it up) - not only did you restore my marriage, but I am better equipped to love my husband and be the wife you have called me to be.
Forgive me, Lord, for not trusting you with my marriage.
Thank you, Lord, for loving me enough to teach me to trust you not only in my marriage, but every area of my life!
Forgive me, Lord, for not always being obedient to what you asked of me (especially when it meant having to own up to some unbecoming behavior toward Richard).
Thank you, Lord, for loving me enough to teach me to trust you not only in my marriage, but every area of my life!
Forgive me, Lord, for not always being obedient to what you asked of me (especially when it meant having to own up to some unbecoming behavior toward Richard).
Thank you, Lord, for your continuing grace and mercy towards me - even when my attitude stinks!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking it was always about me!
Thank you, Lord, that you allowed me to see it was about YOU!
Thank you, Lord, that you allowed me to see it was about YOU!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking I could fix my marriage quicker, better and more creatively than you.
Thank you, Lord, for proving me wrong!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking I know Richard better than you!
Thank you, Lord, for reminding me that YOU created Richard - and know him and love him even more than I ever could!
Forgive me, Lord, for neglecting some of the responsibilities I had as a mom - instead, choosing to become self-centered and worry about the future of my marriage.
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking I know Richard better than you!
Thank you, Lord, for reminding me that YOU created Richard - and know him and love him even more than I ever could!
Forgive me, Lord, for neglecting some of the responsibilities I had as a mom - instead, choosing to become self-centered and worry about the future of my marriage.
Thank you , Lord, for not forgetting Chase....for you, Lord, became very real to him at a young age - as he watched you perform a miracle in his parents marriage.
Forgive me, Lord, for seeking comfort in food rather than in YOU!
Thank you, Lord, for helping me identify that I was seeking comfort from someone or something other than YOU - and teaching me to seek YOUR face during these times of hurt and sadness.
Forgive me, Lord, for trying to get through this season of my life on my strength alone!
Thank you, Lord, for the strength you provided to me - even when I could not find the strength to ask you for it!
Forgive me, Lord, for those days I just did not have the energy (or desire) to meet with you!
Thank you, Lord, that you continued your work in my life and my marriage - that on the days I seemed to have abandoned you - you never left me!
Forgive me, Lord, for trying to get through this season of my life on my strength alone!
Thank you, Lord, for the strength you provided to me - even when I could not find the strength to ask you for it!
Forgive me, Lord, for those days I just did not have the energy (or desire) to meet with you!
Thank you, Lord, that you continued your work in my life and my marriage - that on the days I seemed to have abandoned you - you never left me!
Forgive me, Lord, when I wanted to settle for mediocrity.
Thank you, Lord, that you did not let me settle for mediocrity!
Forgive me, Lord, for wanting to quit....thinking it just was not worth it!
Thank you, Lord, that you continued to place people in my life who, most often unknowingly, confirmed a word that you had spoken to me days before - thereby, encouraging me to continue to seek your will concerning my marriage.
Forgive me, Lord, for continuing to live a life controlled by generational sins - and not recognizing them.
Thank you, Lord, for revealing to me where specific generational sins were spoken into my life....and setting me free!
Forgive me, Lord, for doubting the healing you have brought to my marriage - during those times where "old habits" begin to reveal themselves....
Thank you, Lord, that you remind me that you have set me free and have equipped me to deal with these situations before they become a stronghold in my life again!
Forgive me, Lord, for never thanking you for the Godly counsel that you provided us during this seaon of our life!
Thank you, Lord, for words cannot express the thankfulness for the Godly counsel you provided for us - for using her to keep me focused on seeking your will for my life - and your will for our marriage and family!
Forgive me, Lord, for thinking this issue was TOO BIG for even you!
Thank you, Lord, that once again....you showed me that there is nothing to difficult for you!
Thank you, Lord, that once again....you showed me that there is nothing to difficult for you!
Forgive me, Lord, for trying for force a Richard to have a relationship with you - based on what I thought it should be!
Thank you, Lord, that you allowed the Holy Spirit to convict MY heart regarding MY relationship with YOU! For teaching me that I did not need to worry about Richard's relationship with you - only that I needed to concentrate on my walk with YOU!
Forgive me, Lord, for my resistance to sharing about the miracle you performed in my marriage - and for allowing the enemy to manipulate me into silence.
Thank you, Lord, for sending friends (and strangers) into my life who confirm time and time again what you are speaking to me! Thank you for the courage to step out in faith - to testify, not just with my voice, but in printed word - the mirace you performed in my life and marriage!
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you are absolutely inspiring! i really hope one day that my relationship with my husband is like that of yours with richard. i can tell both of you seek god daily in your lives and in your marriage and that despite the hardships your marriage has endured, you are both very much in love with eachother. it gives me hope!
I stumbleed on you blog nd this post in the middl of a sleepless night. I've turned my back on God recently and am now facing it and the consequences of the actions i was choosing over my relationship with Him and my husband. Basically, I've screwed some things up pretty bad and I facing the music. This post helped me to begin to confess my sins and admit it all.
Pray for me please.
Thank you for posting this. God used it in my life today.
Auburn Girl!
While you think you "just stumbled" onto my blog - I believe God sent you there! I am grateful that you were encouraged and blessed by what I shared - but, the funny thing is....that God used you, to encourage and inspire me to continue to give Him all the praise for healing my marriage!
Last night when I wrote that blog - I had just come home for Beth's bible study and I began thinking about the past 5 years. The fact that 5 years ago I was on the brink of a divorce...and the I decided to write God an open letter - giving him the glory for what He has done! Funny thing, though...this morning I was second guessing myself - and at 5:30 a.m. went down to take it off the blog (thinking it was too transparent of me)! Well, surprise - I found your comment and it brought me to tears! So, you see, God used you to help me have the courage to share my story...and know that I am praying for you!
Believing God with you!
Kelly
Kelly,
Wow. Where to start? :D I was still blown away by your marriage post (which I'll come back to in a sec), but kept reading and was shocked to see my name in print. Me? Thanks for the encouragement! You're too kind!
Okay, the marriage post. You cannot imagine how much it affected me. Really. First off, you were so open. Candid. It was beautiful! It seems there's such a trend... a mandate, it seems... for Christian women and wives to behave as though we have no issues. We smile and play church and fellowship and rarely let on that our homes are suffering, our marriages are falling apart, and our hearts are crying for resolution and an extra measure of God's grace. I love it when we as Christian women can come to the place of saying, "this is me, and this is my God. This is what I did, and this is what God did. This is who I am, and this is who He is." I love how your post displayed that - so openly. Thank you.
I admire you for having the spiritual depth and hunger to look to the Lord to save your marriage. Mine ended in January, and although my exhuband was abusive, I spend every day thinking of how God might have worked in that situation had I been patient... or longsuffering... enough to stick it out. To be honest, I'm almost grateful I'll never know. But then again, God is so much bigger than our biggest problems. Oh me of little faith!
Anyway, I've rambled long enough. Thanks for the post. May God bless you and your house over and above what you've even imagined...
Brin
What an absolutely touching, heart-felt, excellent, real post. Thank you for sharing your insights through your prayers. I pray that God will continue to strengthen your marriage and continue to deepen the love you have for each other.
I sincerely appreciate your prayers. I'm in the middle of those times when "times are hard" but I realize - or REMEMBER - how very very good God is. And how good my husband is.
Also I appreciate your reading through my tired, sloppy typing.
I've posted my email on my blog, if you want to email me.
That was strangely awkward, like asking for a date or something!
And you're right. God sent me your way and He used your vulnerability to speak to me and begin working on my heart. I've grown so far away from Him. It's gonna be a long road back.
THANKS AGAIN!
What an excellent, well thought out post and prayer! Beautifully said, Kelly.
Thank you.
I love my husband so much,
Bless yours.
Kelly, dahhhhlink...do you have an email here somewhere? I need your addy, hon, so I can send you a wonderful gift =)
simply beautiful
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